Not too many, with today’s stupid websites. Plus a bunch of large tools, IDEs, Ghidra, a few containers… it adds up :(

Good for you, I have 32g and if I do too many things at once, the oom killer will stalk my tabs

Maybe stop shouting, some of us try to sleep here!

that’s also something I won’t get over.

Not when you keep repeating that to yourself. Shit sucks, shit will suck for a while, but shit won’t suck forever. It is okay to grief and be sad about good things. But life has to go on. Do things, meet people, force yourself to do it.

It will get better, period. Right now, it feels like it won’t. But you are already reaching out here, that is working on getting better. Keep doing it, and in the meantime, head up, chest out, carry on.